Brownies Off My Counter (found)

For years,
I had this feeling—
I was alone.

I considered the brownies.
I was scared for you.

I stayed in,
Numbing dreams.

Heartbreak or grief,
Your chest in flames—
Few compare to that kind of pain.

Shrouded in a haze,
I was too weak.

Then my intuition told me
It wasn't my fault,
That I was scared.

The biggest difference.
It was about love—
All my memories,
All my life.

I learn.
I live.
It is all real.

I ruminate,
Linger in meaning.

Another perspective—
Wise and thoughtful
In my eyes

Never immortal.
Just too late.

In some way,
You grow.
I’ll lighten the load.
Best in the past, right?

I’ve hated baking,
But it reminds me of you.

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